January 2012
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How to find textbooks online for free: a post.
obsessionfull:
Textbooks are fucking expensive, and if your professor doesn’t require a physical copy (most don’t - they just want you to have the book at hand. Or maybe even not. Some professors literally give no fucks about whether you have the book or not) and you don’t mind having your copy as an electronic copy - this is the post for you!
Most textbook companies put out new editions every...
October 2011
4 posts
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i'm going to put some distance between us right...
Because no matter how hard I try to get closer to you, you don’t seem to want it. So let’s try some reverse psychology, shall we? How about I ignore you, and not come near you as often, and let’s see what happens.
I mean, it somehow worked this morning. I didn’t come near you, or even touch you. But you decided to scoot closer to me. You decided to take my hand into yours....
I don’t know why I’m so depressed today. Or just down in the dumps. I’m going ot blame my hormones, but I don’t that’s it.
Oh well. I guess the best thing to do is distract myself from everything by doing homework.
September 2011
1 post
13 SEPTEMBER 2011
Let me explain what happened last night, which was a Monday.
Basically, Taylor took me home. I think it’s really cute when he asks me if I need a ride. Haha. I love it when he reaches for my hands first in the car. I never take his. But he’ll touch my hand softly, until I give him the “ohkay” for him us to intertwine our fingers. And then I’ll just stroke him hand...
August 2011
2 posts
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You know, I’ve always viewed myself to be confidant. But now, all I can see if an insecure and jealous little fuck. But that’s just me.
I’m sorry about being insecure about myself. I’m sorry that I freak out over the smallest thing. I’m sorry for not trusting you completely. I’m sorry for assuming things. But I’m always going to assume the worst. And...
Not much going through my mind right now. Just kind of thinking how messed up my sleeping schedule is right now. I should go to bed, but I’m hungry and craving Indian food to the max. I’m always craving it. I do not know why. I can eat so much Indian curry. I am the curry queen. Only Indian curry, mind you.
Life is good right now. Just looking into cars to see if I can find a good...
June 2011
1 post
SWEET MOTHER OF FUCKING EXTRATERRESTRIALS ON A GOD...
Parents. Both of them have fucking problems. They need to get the fuck out, and leave me alone. Seriously. I am a fit of rage right now. I want to bitch slap both of them so hard. I want to scream at them both to get a fucking grip, and get over themselves. They’re just immature little brats that don’t get what they want.
I don’t understand, because I don’t want to....
May 2011
5 posts
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14 MAY 2011
Wow, I’m turning 17 in just a few days. Kind of weird, kind of amazing, really. It didn’t hit me that I’ll be turning this much older, until a few weeks ago. Haha. I can feel my friends interrogating me, on what I want for my birthday. x) Really, God has blessed me with such loving people in my life. I’m grateful. THEIR LOVE IS ENOUGH, BUT THEY CAN’T SEEM TO...
ALMOST 3AM.
But I’m ohkay!
So, during AP testing, I didn’t know ANYTHING. So I decided to doodle and daydream my way through the agonizing time.
I’ve decided that I want to get three tattoos when I’m 18+.
A Triforce on the inside/outside of my index or middle finger; on the the base of my neck.
A bunch of bats, scattered on the back of my right shoulder or right collar bone.
A...
I like it when you kiss my hand.
It’s rather cute.
6 MAY 2011
AP US HISTORY testing today, at 8AM. I’m so not ready for it. But you know what?
Seriously, I just want to get a 1900 on my SATs, and I’ll be happy. Kind of impossible, but I’ll try.(: I’m close to it, just need to practice a bit more.
But right now, sleep sounds lovely. Teehee.
April 2011
6 posts
1 tag
29 APRIL 2011
Today was a lot of fun.(: I woke up at around 12PM. Finally slept in, and it felt AMAZING. I got up and got ready to go to PANERA with Sammy to grab lunch together. There, we just sat around, and ate our food. THEN A CUTE WORKER THERE PICKED UP OUR PLATES. HNNNNNNNG. I wanted to stare at him some more, but alas. I couldn’t. ):
Afterwards, I swooped by the library to say hi to Sandy and...
27 APRIL 2011
Studying plan failed. Ohwell. I give up. I’m just going to get a good score on my Calc and English AP exam. Fuck APUSH. I’m not going to be a historian, and when I become a nurse, I’m not going to start a conversation off by telling a patient how the battle of Saratoga started.
ANYHOO. I downloaded so much RED ROBIN issues today. I feel so accomplished. And Kon shows up, right...
25 APRIL 2011
One more week until AP testing. One more week to study rigorously for APUSH and AP Calc. I am going to die. ): And on top of that, I have to study for SATs. I’m devoting my day tomorrow to AP studying, since I was lacking on it this weekend. Barely touched any of my study materials. = 3= I am so not motivated to study.
So, I’ve decided that I really want to go to UCI for college. I...
It’s just been a day since Taylor left for Dubai, and I already miss him. -___________- It’s a tad frustrating, because I don’t want to. It makes the time go by faster, really. :/
22 APRIL 2011
So today was a really good day.(:
Started out normal. Got up late, went to school, did my schooly thangs, and whatnot.
THEN CAME AFTER SCHOOL.(: Oho! Went to SANDY’S house with Stephanie and Audrey! We were singing in the car, picked up some WII stuff, and walked up a hill to the elementary school near Sandy’s house.
Afterwards, we went back to Sandy’s, and made SPAM MUSUBI...
Insomnia, how fun.
I’m supposed to be running in 4 hours too. I don’t know how I’m going to do it on the amount of sleep I’m going to get later. :/
Nothing in particular are consuming my thoughts. I’m just…yeah. Bored, I suppose. I think I’m going to watch a movie until I fall asleep.
LEHZGO.
March 2011
2 posts
Do I still care?
Or do I not? It’s hard to determine, since I don’t let my mind ponder on the topic too long. Just because I get sidetracked easily, or it’s a thought that comes and goes as it pleases.
But I think at the end of the day, I still do care. But the way things are now, I’m fine. Not satisfied, not content, not happy. Just fine. I think that’s the best word I can say.
4 MARCH 2011
Bought JUNO. And I think I’m set for some time. That movie is seriously one of the cutest movies in the world. And kind of touching. It makes me want to go preggo, but I’m ohkay. Haha.
I think it’s the witty lines in the movies that made me love it so much. I swear, the writer of the movie, she’s amazing. Diablo, I believe is her name.<3 Kudos to her.
AND NOW, I AM...
February 2011
3 posts
26 FEBRUARY 2011
Today was pretty eventful, I suppose. Went out with my GC group to film. I play the older sister, while Christine plays the younger sister with a terminal illness. When we were planning this, it was actually pretty funny. Our GC is based on the book Catch-22, and I was like, “The doctor should say to the sister, ‘I’m sorry…but your sister has an extreme illness…she...
GIRL SCOUTS. UGH.
Yeah, I’m still a Girl Scout. Yeah, I’m on my last project EVER. Yeah, it’s this Saturday. Yeah, I procrastinated to do it until NOW.
Yeah, I know I’m fucked. That is why I’m finishing up my APUSH outline, so I can focus on my Girl Scout stuff tomorrow, and SOLEY today. Like, I’m going to finish as much as I can today and tomorrow, and just before Friday. God...
6 FEBRUARY 2011
Yesterday, I woke up at around 11:30AM, and began my day from there.
My charger for my laptop FINALLY came, after waiting around for it for about a month. Good things come to those who wait.
Actually, I was getting REALLY impatient with the thing. -______- I was thinking, “IT’S ALMOST BEEN 30 DAYS. WHERE IS MY CHARGER!??!?!” I really needed to download some music, and do...
January 2011
8 posts
I don't know whether to distance myself from you...
I mean, things are fine right now, but I feel like you’re just…there. And I’m just there to you.
Distance makes the heart grow fonder.
And I think that’s what we kind of need right now. Where I don’t take you for granted, and you don’t take me for granted. So I guess a little distance won’t hurt. But I don’t know. We’ll see how I feel in...
It's only 11:22PM! And it feels like 1AM right...
Joy.
11 JANUARY 2011
Have you ever finished an essay BEFORE midnight, especially in you’re a Junior in high school? Some prolly have…BUT TODAY WAS MY FIRST TIME. :D I finished my partner essay before 11PM with Cassey Hong! Happiest moment of our lives. As soon as she sent the essay to me to print out, she screamed. Which scared the daylights out of me. But we jumped up and down, and started to dance to...
8 JANUARY 2011
Yesterday was a lot of fun with Taylor. He came over after school, and we exchanged our Christmas presents. He got me some seashells from Dubai when he went scuba diving, which was really precious. And he also got me…A CANON LENS CUP! It looks like a regular lens…BUT IT’S A CUP. >_______> Currently drinking water from it right now.(: I adore it so much. Haha.
And then...
ONE MORE DAY
Until Taylor comes back from Dubai.(: I missed him a lot, though I won’t admit it. >:0 I want to give him a big hug though. That’d be lovely.
1 JANUARY 2011
POST OF THE NEW YEAR!(: And man, did I have fun. Last last night, I spent it with Ms. Caroline Potts. She came over to my place first, and we watched a little TV. Then we were craving CHIPOTLE. And thanks to our craving, our sleepover adventure began.(: Her dad picked us up, and we did a quick run to Chiptole, then we went our way to Caroline’s house. We spent the night watching PETERPAN,...
December 2010
16 posts
I feel so empty.
Lord, how do I become closer to you? I feel like I lost my way in this world, and I just don’t know why.
I feel empty with my family. I feel empty with my friends. I feel empty when I do things. I feel empty with I’m with the people I love. I feel empty when I look at people now.
Am I empty?
But When I touch the Bible, I want to cry. When I read your words, I feel overwhelmed. When...
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I'm just going to leave this hereeeeee. >_______>
Taylor Shirley: (heart)
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wedyoung: Hahahaha.
wedyoung: There. that's always better
wedyoung: Muahh~
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Taylor Shirley: haha
Taylor Shirley: Muah,
wedyoung: how do you log out? =____=
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CHRISTMAS
Going to hang out with Taylor tomorrow, before he leaves to Africa to visit his dad. He best be getting a souvenir. His Christmas present is almost done. It was funny. We were at Disneyland, and he bought this pack of sour gummies. Then he said to me, “If you bought me a big pack of these, seriously, I would be the happiest guy alive. I don’t need things. I just want THIS.” He is...
19 DECEMBER 2010
Yesterday was a superfilledfantasticday.
Woke up at 10AM, listened to the rain a little bit, texted a few people, then went back to sleep. Then I woke up again at 1:30PM, and ran to the bathroom. My friends were coming over at 2PM, so I only had 30 minutes to take a shower and clean up the house a little. But I didn’t need to do that. Sandy and Liz came over, and they FORCED me to clean. I...
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss you. Because I do.
I’m not sure what happened between us. One moment, everything seemed ohkay, the next, I receive awkward smiles, and no eye contact. Now. It’s like nothing. Like we don’t even see each other or know one another existed.
And of course, it bothers the hell out of me. Because I don’t know what happened.
...
13 DECEMBER 2010
Only 8:35PM? I have plenty of time to do homework.(:
Went down to Santa Monica yesterday to visit my cousins, and watch their Christmas recital. It was really cute. Both of my cousins were so nervous. I guess now that we’re older, me and my cousin who’s the same age as me, Perry, get along more. Not that we never did in the past. But we definitely talk more. I love that kid. And his...
12 DECEMBER 2010
Yesterday was a pretty fun day. Started out going to the parade. I so did not want to go. But then again, who did? It was pretty hot too, so I was sweating a lot. Thank goodness it ended though. But on the way there, Taylor was cute. Hahaha. And then, on the way back to the bus, I saw a guy with a really big head. I think he might have some sort of disease, I’m not sure. But Julian turns...
10 DECEMBER 2010
7 more days until DISNEYLAND! My brother is already there with his friend. That lucky little boy. But I went recently, so I’m still happy. Going to buy a WOODY shirt from TOMORROWLAND, and match with Caroline with her Buzzlightyear shirt. Haha. It’ll be so cute.(:
Today was really funny. Had a black out rally. It was pretty boring, so Sophia and I just played on my phone. I downloaded...
I think I just want to be alone for now.
That’s what I think I want, but is it really? I don’t even know. It feels nice to be able to do nothing and just sit and listen to music, and just think.
5 NOVEMBER 2010
Spent time with Taylor yesterday. It was nice and fun. Haha. Just being with him kind of made me realized that I did miss him during the week. And I guess he kind of noticed it too. He kind of commented on it, and was like, “We haven’t kissed all week.”
But then, I realize that I do this a lot. Distance myself from people close to me. I don’t know why I do it, but I do. I...
I miss having LONG phone conversations.
I'm actually quite unsatisfied with myself.
Not how I am as a person, though I definitely think I could improve in some areas.
But rather, physically. I don’t really like my body. I do like it, but I think I can do better. Lose more weight, get some more muscles. So I have a new aim. To lose weight and get muscles. And to actually RUN.
I just want a better body. Hahaha.
30 NOVEMBER 2010
I do not understand why I do not have a warm jacket in my closet. =_____= I’m hoping to do some shopping with Andy on Friday at OLD NAVY. They have nice jackets, so I want to buy one for winter. Or probably H&M. FOREVER21 is cheaper, but the material isn’t as nice as H&M, I hope. But H&M does have a 10$ dress that I might be interested in. Haha.
After school today, after...
November 2010
24 posts
I'm going to put some distance between us this...
Because I think you need your space, and I need mine. We’ll see what happens.